Am I too sensitive?

So there is someone who loves to criticize or so called making fun of others~~~

I am so serious with all these people. Or should i said i am overprotecting my friend...when someone making fun of her, i start to get mad and trying to warn them...

It isn't a fault for someone to perform his/hers skill. And you are trying to tell him/her that showing off is isn't the best~~~Gee~! what the freaking hell was going on? are you telling me you are jelly because he/she can use a better poem which is lower form poem and you can't? Maybe i should said that people work and study harder to learn more and you didn't make it so i guarantee you are jelly-ing....YOU SCUMBAG! please respect others, you think hurting and criticizing people is fun? Well~if this situation is at you, will you be happy? DAMN! Piss OFF!! LEARN TO RESPECT!

I love EMO!

Well, its been a long time. Here i m back again. I m become totally EMO...i wish to cry out loud but i don't want too. I seriously don't understand what m i doing. I used to be a hyper active girl and optimistic plus love to think positive. But nowadays, i don't know why i turn myself be so useless and hopeless. It is because of homesickness? Too stress? Too boring?

All my friend said i m insane. Yes, indeed. I am really insane, but do any of them know i m sad inside? What they know, only the opposite side of me. I m downcast and sad inside but no one know. Everyone thought i was crazy~~ i m really hopeless...

AH!!!! whats wrong with you? Can you be more motivated? I m lonely~~~ i want my family!
Hey~don't care about me! Perhaps after few days i will turn to normal again~~~I M SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!!!

God~can you show and lead me to the correct and happy way? I m lost in the middle of the street~~Can GOD lead me home?

Can i stop talking? I m boring!!! I love EMO!!!!!!!!!! i am totally crazy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

난 정말 미쳤어! 어떻게? 도와주세요!!! 부탁합니다!
난 나의 가족 정말 그리워!!

I m gonna explode~~~

Oh my GOD~~~is week 4 now. Why time elapsed just as we winked our eyes?

Well, my sem 2 life started...For me, i would think this sem is a challenge for me. Why i say so??
Because my sem 2 practical group is HOPELESS!!! All the report i have to do it myself, aren't you guys tell me to give others do it since their LAZINESS and SIMPLY DO become more horrible? My lecture told me the report is half of my coursework mark. On the day the lecture distribute us into groups, i turned to be moody and speechless plus i was not in the mood to talk to friends. Fine, i cant complain so much since i had chose this subject and i have to accept my destiny.

Seriously this sem is my toughest period, due to the reason~in last sem, i got an A- in my english so i was distributed into A class. Why they done this? To balance the study level of every students. Well, perhaps it was not so bad at all, i still have 3 of my friends same class with me,Huey2, Monica and Jin. In this sem, we have to do our 10 min individual presentation, summary writing and group presentation. The great news is we dont have to wear formal looking, HEHE! our lecture said formal attire doesn't mean you can speak well.

Oh~i never talk about my friends live nearby. Actually i got 3 friends live at the same area with me, Jingjie same condo different block, Huey2 nearby condo, Lingjin nearby condo. But recently Huey2 moved to her new condo which is at PV, so i left 2 friends. We used to go home together, went to UCHA blow water (what i learnt at KL), went to buy grocery, ate dinner together and also went to pasar malam. At KL, i had a lot of memorable memories with all my new friends. Plus, i learnt to be independent.

By the way~i had ever be emotional since last week. I zipped my mouth as my mouth filled with gold, i was totally hopeless. I felt stressful due to the report thing. I never thought to cry just to release my stress but doing nothing unconsciously. It feels like i am not myself. After sometimes chatted with my bestie, i felt better and i m thankful for her. I became normal again at the next day. ^.^

I felt so sorry for my hometown friends that i couldn't attend the gathering. I promised my friend earlier to accompany her to Lowyat look for a new phone casing. The next day, they changed the plan...they want to go for a riding or so called cycling at Putrajaya on Saturday which was the day my hometown friends invited me out. That day was also my classmate's birthday~they had a BBQ party at night. Time crushed at the same, my friend (the driver not afford to drive me home as soon as possible because they want to buy something prepare for the BBQ party) so i can't be that selfish. I m really sorry for my friends. Hope you guys understand, if you guys went out on Sunday, i m sure ON!

So sorry, my dear friends T^T

Till here then, i still have to go school to discuss report with friends. I will try my best in this SEM! 화이팅!
할수있어!

My Sem Break Holidays!!



Hahaha~~~~~~~~ >o<

Once again, i had been left out since a decade ago...Hmm..isn't that i am the one who lazy to write blog? Haha..i guess so @.@

Well, actually my 1st sem in college was quite awesome...i had met a lots of friends from different states. Finally i got to know their habits and attitudes and more..i think it was quite hard to communicate with each others when we were facing unsatisfication opinion? Haha..but after a long time to hang out with them, i am used to it.

Hehe~i took korean class in my college life...MY FAVOURITE! The class took 1 and half months to complete the basic element. There was some assignment and an exam, guess what? i got A for my exam!! OMG! Oh yeah~talking about exam result, my result will be release on 18 September 2012. I hope i can get some As from some subjects.

By the way~i should start my blog even earlier cause the new sem is coming thats mean my holiday getting over...but nevermind i just briefly talk about my life in KL. There was no such GREAT thing about my rental "HOSTEL"...those people in the house were so eerie...they wont speak to you cause maybe they were not that friendly...but somehow i love my groupmates, they are so kind! Glad that GOD let us meet with each others.

Now lets talk about my sem break holiday. It was so GREAT to return to your own sweet home, but now is time to say goodbye again to my sweet home. What have i done during my sem break? Hmm, i watched korean drama " Rooftop Prince", "Mayqueen" and my favourite korean entertainment " RUNNINGMAN"!
Oh my...i really really love korean movie, ITS FANTASTIC BABY!

There were also some agony during my holidays...i had been attacked by toothache, the "reborn" of acne and pimples(maybe it is because of my sensitive skin? o.O) and somemore diarrhea...AHHH!!! i think i should not take other food anymore, i dont want to have the same problem again and again. Plus, i think i  have to loss weight since all my aunts said that i had gained weight... T^T

안녕하세요! 내 이름은 메르린 입니다. 나 JYJ, 빅뱅, 한지민, 런닝멘 팬 입니다! 반가워요!  한국말 어렵다 하지만 재밌다!

The day i 'ran' out from home

Hehe~it seems like my blog did not update for a 'decade'...wakakaka ><

So to improve my english, i'm gonna start my blog in english plus our school encourage us to speak more in english...i know is quite hard for me to change my language but i'll try my best!

After i 'ran' out from home, i need to start a new life which is no parents guiding~~~I used to be protected by my dear parents...but~ from now on i have to try my best to live my life independently.

I had never get home sick~~until the day i 'ran' out from my home...i am seriously emo-ing~! I felt like hating myself because i cant even hold my tears when i went to the airport~~~i am very useless...even some of my friends, they come to here by themselves and they didn't really felt a bit of sadness or anything~~~

I am very clear with my aim...My aim to come here is to study~but this morning...although i am happy to join a new college life, i felt that everything surrounding me is very strange to me...i am not sure that i can throw all these mindset away but i am trying my best to suit myself in a new surrounding~

Oh God~~when can i set aside all my homesickness, strange feeling and stress??

I am really lost myself...by the way~is time to off to sleep...bye guys! see you next time =D

如何逃过？

不知不觉SPM的倒数日从三位数--->两位数就要到一位数了~

怎么办好？我的成绩嘛~说好不是很好，说差又不至于这么差...就是吊在半空中的啦~

为什么我不努力？能不能怪这文明的社会啊？还是身上太多懒惰虫？

哥哥每天都催我读书，可是我却不是很积极的说~咳！！

星期一开始trial2了，这可是最后一次的翻身....结果考试出的题目...我的天呀！

华语~如往常过的去，不过很大预感是不及格 ><

生物~Walaoeh~~~不懂在写什么

高级数学~paper 1 过的去，paper 2 嘛一个字 ‘死’

物理~paper 1 机关枪的子弹都完了，都没办法

烦恼时候~爸爸跟哥哥讨论我将来的行业...救命啊！我真的不知要读什么...求你们暂时别问我这个复杂的问题。

本来计划好读：

1）Quantity Surveyor---physics 烂的要命~爸爸说很辛苦

2）Veterinarian---比读医生还要辛苦几倍

3）Planner---不懂哪儿有的读 (在马来西亚)

4）Multimedia---爸爸问：读完书后你能找到工作吗？

5）Tourism---暂时没什么意见~

6）Psychology---妈妈说有难度

7）Teacher---没意见

8）Accountant---妈妈赞成虽然我现在没拿，因为她本身曾经是会计师。

好乱啊！！！

觉得还是把SPM考了再算吧~

Clarice: 谢谢你的DOMO! 我有个和你有关的东西可以纪念了...LOL >o<

我永远都不能原谅我自己

原来我才是那个没良心、自私、没有顾虑你的感受的坏人~

谢谢你，抱怨我对你不仁的态度，谢谢你，把心里的话都说出来

或许‘她’说的没错，问题明明在自己的身上，可是却没发现。

天天老是说她不对，忽略我，抛弃我~~之类。其实我也曾经抛弃过她，只是没发觉。

好啦~我反省了，但是我很讨厌我自己，我不懂要如何面对自己

我真的很对不起你~我不恳求你原谅我，因为我伤了我最好的姐妹。

有时候一句‘对不起’ 根本不能弥补一切, 至于她们两个~我也感到非常愧疚。

我不应该这样想~其实好朋友应该互相信任，关心，照顾而不是妒忌他人......

也许这一个教训能让我学习如何不要再犯同样的错。我希望在往后的日子，我不再犯错。

朋友们：其实一直以来我最大的敌人是我自己，是‘她’把我叫醒的~我非常感激她

We can forgive, but we never forget

我不懂如何面对你是好？
一想起你对我的态度，似乎不能再和你聊天了...
我很失望，原来是我自己在拍掌而已...
也许我并不是你的什么重要人吧~

所谓：一个手掌拍不响~

我一直告诉自己看开点，不要想，不要理，可是我做不到~
我真的不想失去你这位我一直把你当成是我好姐妹的好友。但当你再三的提起‘那两个人’时，我的心里真的很不舒服，我的存在似乎是透明的。

也许你觉得我很小气，可是就是要引起你的注意才向你发脾气~

或许我可以放下这一切，不要在乎这么多...但是你所做的，将让我铭记在心。无法走出自己的阴影......
一个朋友写的：We can forgive, but we never forget

平常的我都是非常坚强的，可是...

今天我躲起来哭了~为的是什么？

爱情吗？不是...

家里出事？也不是

不是~因为你...

为什么我总是觉得你对我很冷淡...虽然我的外表是开朗乐观，可是我的心可是像玻璃一样脆弱。

你是不是喜新厌旧，每次都说我要带那‘两个人’? 每次在其他朋友出现时就把我抛下；每次想找你聊天，可是你却每次都是忽视我的存在...难道我真的这么令你厌恶吗，我真的这么烦吗? 我是不是你的娃娃，需要时就用，不需要时就扔掉???

也许是有时说错话，得罪了你。那~我承认是我错。

双子座的朋友或许她们也是这样的，开心的外表，脆弱的内心~

p/s: 请问你知道被抛弃的滋味吗?

Brother's birthday!

Today was my young brother's real birthday. My whole family went for breakfast and bought lots of cookie and puffs especially curry puff~his favourite. The freaking Sunday had just started. Playing facebook's game in front of computer, study, listen to nice chinese song then continued my game...== Gee~to make my young brother happy, he suggested me to watch 'Final Destination 5'. OMG!!! That was freaking scary, furious and disgusting...Eww~

Final Destination 5

Well firstly i would like to advice you guys those who cannot watch disgusting thing and things related to horrible death. Please don't force yourself to watch it or ask someone to accompany you when you are watching. =D

* It was something related to the death that cannot stopped by human, when it is the right time the death will come and get your life away by making any dreadful accident.

I had a lots of fun with my two handsome brother. I had followed them to play basketball...LOL. Although i am not pro enough, but i really enjoy the game with them. I felt so blessed cause i have a wonderful family although we are not rich people.

~~I love you, you love me, we are happy family~~

Remember our family member is our supporting pole, trust them ^^

人生中的经历

29/8/2011

今天，我六点多已起床为了迎接我的好姐妹-Janet。玩玩电脑，收拾背包准备到一位好友（Winnee）的家度过一晚，吃早餐。
-->返回学校上老师为大家加的华文班。
-->Winnee的妈妈到校来载我们回她家。
-->阿姨为我们煮了美味可口的Macaroni，谢谢阿姨！
-->我们大家坐下来和Winnee介绍的‘White Chick'*P/S(我不懂怎么拼，呵呵)我可说是要笑破肚皮了
-->Winnee边弹琴边歌唱，我们在旁也开始跟着唱起来，好开心哦！
-->我们（Winnee,Janet,Donald,Kylie-Yee Fei还有我）开始下厨咯

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* Pizza~> *
* 大家分工合作，齐心合力打造属于我们自己的pizza+Muffin *
* Muffin~> *
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-->等待翠湘姐的来临，真是让我们等到颈都长了 xD
-->晚餐吃什么？鸡翅膀，哈哈！因为下午已经把肚子添的满满的（macaroni,pizza,muffin,cola）
-->睡前我们躲在房里谈心事~呵呵，好好玩哦！

30/8/2011

赶紧起床因为我们要去乘达火车去Papar了！好兴奋哦！
在Papar买小食，吃炒面，买东西！谢谢Winnee =D
呵呵~又是时候看家庭电影咯。我们观赏了Adele's Adventure。这是一部法国片，蛮不错的虽说是听不懂法文 ^^v
哇咔咔~我可说这假期可以把我养胖2-3公斤因为看完戏后Winnee的妈妈又为我们准备了一顿丰富的午餐，再次谢谢阿姨 =D
之后嘛~到房里吹冷气，呼呼~再一次的谈天说地
接下来是到Tanjung Aru海边及Perdana Park拍照留念

P/S：我非常希望你能履行‘你’对大家定下的诺言，别忘了我们大家已经打过勾勾咯！

31/8/2011

今天没什么特别，感觉上根本没有国庆日的气氛。电脑游戏总是离不开我~

1/9/2011

糟了~我简直是在浪费时间玩电脑游戏，怎么办？

2/9/2011

之前

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今天我的长发也变短了~也好吧，因为妈妈时常说我掉发....

3/9/2011

今天一早就随爸爸到姑姑家帮姑姑。我们决定提早庆祝中秋节及弟弟的十三岁生日。姑姑带我去买所需品。回家就忙个没完没了~姑姑还带我去选弟弟的生日蛋糕。今天几乎每位姑姑都叫我帮她们处理手机的琐碎问题，哈哈~我好像变成了一个手机专家 xD

哇~今晚的菜肴非常丰富啊！有Jelly月饼、炸虾、炸Sotong、蒸鸡、鸡饭、糖水、巧克力蛋糕及各种各样的美食，肚子可是装的满满的！

满脸失望

考试的死期~

目前如果我华语不及格的话，我还能接受~
我唯一最失望的是高级数学，考试前几天都拼命做练习...结果考试当天什么都不会~失望透顶！
考了高级数学后，开始没心情考别的卷子了~
化学和物理~若不及格都在我预料中
国语~Ok啦
英文~还好...

好开心哦~下课跑去找Winnee, Yi Chen & Chyng Yi 一起复习。Winnee太好笑了,说的话实在可以让人笑破肚皮。不过我要谢谢她，因为她帮我减少了一些压力！

我回来了！

啊！！！我恨考试呀！
令我压力非常大~！！
为何要考试？
不过我有音乐陪我渡过这个无聊的考试期！
我最近觉得开始听英文歌了但是不久还是听回韩国歌叻
F(x)的歌非常好听！
1. La Cha Ta
2. Chu
3. NU ABO
4. Hot Summer
5. Pinocchio
英文歌也不错啦~
1. Who says-Selena Gomez
2. Moves Like Jagger
3. The Lazy Song
4. E.T
5. What the Hell
6. On the floor

我好仰慕这个人!

你们能猜出这个人的性别吗？

没关系，再来~

好啦~她是女的，是不是好像男生呢？我超仰慕她打扮成男生的样子！若她是男生，我肯定爱死她

Name: Amber Liu (American-Chinese)只会说简单的华语，她的专长~Chinglish(Chinese+English), F(x)的成员之一，超厉害RAP! , 很有男生的帅气。

可能男生都会被她打倒！哈哈！她好帅！

她是不是和左边的长得很像？左边的是Kim Jong Hyun-SHINee. 好像兄弟哦 ^^

她可是在韩国歌团内最特别的女生！她不喜欢扮可爱，不像其他韩国女生。我喜欢她！！！！

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS! REMEMBER

Gee~what a 'good' luck fell on me??? So it wasn't a GOOD luck!

This morning I had check my PLKN status. And result cames out with

Tahniah ......Terpilih

Nama: MARILYN XXXX XXXX XXXXXX

No. I/C: 940XXXXXXXXX

Isn't that cool? Do you knew tat I have been waited for a whole day since yesterday and finally i got the result this morning......

MARILYN!!!! Wake up PLEASE!!! Stop procrastinating your time, you aren't left many time to sit for SPM! There are about 136 days!

PLEASE Mind your own business, MARILYN! Forget about people's fringe, gossip and any bad things, THEY ARE NOT UR BUSINESS!!!STOP TO BE BUSYBODY!

Who you think you are? Advise her as an Ex-prefect? Come on~You are not qualified to do so!

Fine! any gossip surrounding you just refuse to listen to it, it will not comes any benefit to you too....STUDY DO SO!

So, STUDY & REVISE FREQUENTLY!!!

I have to commit my words! THIS IS MY NEW PRINCIPLE! I should follow it before its too late.

喜或悲？

早上嘛~呼呼！叻沙板面....好吃！！！！

Transformer 3 我来啦！哇~好刺激也蛮好看的！我给5颗星！

*****（2小时又30多分钟的时间是在戏院里，屁股块麻痹了！）

呵~弟弟终于买了梦寐以求的篮球鞋（好高兴的他!）

*哈哈~猜我今天遇见谁？Nicole Kong-戏院场外面 & Adrian Wong-Digi centre

哎哟肚子快饿扁了所以在Karamunsing的SCR(Singapore Chicken Rice)停顿下来~

这是Salad Chicken Rice。价值RM6.90，味道非常好！

呵呵~爸爸买了一部手提电脑以方便工作。好漂亮的一部laptop说 ^^

去SERVAY买日常用品。想买对鞋子却找不到~可惜！

再用手机ON Facebook时，发现大家都在讨论PLKN的课题~我也决定去查，可是踏不进去那个网站~

我是否变了？

忽然发现我再也不是以前凡是都看得开的我~

究竟是压力还是双面人出现？

现在的我像是小小事也非常在乎~~~所以应该可列为‘小气鬼’吧？

但过一会又恢复正常了.....到底是怎么回事？

凡是被我惹火或我对你们不礼貌的人，我在此感到非常抱歉！

请你们宽容大量，不要和我这种小人计较~感谢不已

辞职不当巡查员是个错误吗？我好像发现在没有当巡查员的那段时期，我开始改变了。

谁能告诉我能怎么办？脾气又十分暴躁！

有意见的人可在留言板上留言，然后我会试着听大家的劝告！谢谢

2011/7/7 的Post

什么？？？？

咳~不懂怎么这么困...

体育节~哈哈...跟男生打篮球+抢球=结果我输了T^T！没关系~习惯就好...

下课时Janet似乎要病了，一副憔悴的样子...真令人担心！Janet~好好照顾身体啊！

放学了，我坐上车后~妈突然说你的哥哥下个星期被派到去山打根培训！当我听到后仿佛晴天霹雳！这时我有种难以表达的心情.....心好像沉了~~~还以为可以和哥哥度过这4-5个月，结果~~~我好像哭，但是妈说让哥哥去那里可以学更多东西。我只好静下来~

哥~我不怪你常在教我物理时骂我 , 不恨你在与你看连续剧时一直捣蛋，每天吵吵闹闹~

当你不在时，我会非常想念你的！

好事连连~哈哈！

今早如往常一样相隔一天才抹窗~没想到Pn Chu竟然称赞说：窗抹得十分干净 ^^ 好开心呢！总算没白费我的心机了~

哈哈～Nicole说：常常坐在我周围却不知我会高级数学。因为会做，所以她开始向我‘请教’了～哈哈～～～对我而言：助人为快乐之本！

下课后，我和Janet在走廊聊天，聊着聊着~Bryan Chai叫我的名字后给了我一张文凭！那是什么？我顿时傻眼了～～～是巡查员文凭叻～可是我没成功当完2011年的学长也？不过总算有四年又四个月吧～所以说是我应得的咯？回想起来，这四年又四个月为学校付出的贡献总算没白费，应该是说证明学校还是会珍惜我所谓的‘付出’．．．我非常感谢愿意留下这份文凭给我的人！

＊只要你愿意付出，就算现在没人会珍惜，但我相信总有一天一定有人会珍惜的＊

心里简直是有许多说不出的话！不管是因为赞赏还是文凭，我都想说：感谢上帝的恩赐，家人和好朋友好姐妹的爱心支持！

内疚~

今天嘛~上体育课时，玩得十分兴奋因为好久没有体育节了！！！

哈哈~下课前，我们为Pn Chu唱生日歌虽然是迟了一天~她好像被吓到哦...

事情发生了~~~JY洗了些相片给GF虽说只是sivik projek可是他们还有玩偷拍.....给GF的却是些平时在班上的模样，其中有某人和GF的照。但是某人说太spoil了所以想扔掉，但我告诉她可以留作回忆，因此听了我的话，某人又想向GF拿回，可是GF应该是认为某人要把照片扔掉所以硬说不！一旁的EL看见了，想帮某人。于是在我去图书馆借书时发生争议~当我回来时，大家的脸都变了...

回家我发了网上短讯给GF~说对不起可是GF说不关我的事，可是我还是很内疚叻~

是我的错吗？难道一句‘留作回忆’都有错吗？我感到很内疚~怎么办？

希望明天是个好天！把一切恢复原形！

我以后都不要再多事了~想帮人却弄巧反拙....

若你们知道文中的人，请当作是读故事。谢谢！

这是我唯一能分享我的人生的地方。

对不起~~ =(

平凡的周末

周末的早上如往常一样~一家人去享用美味早餐
大约中午时，我开始和爸爸弄SOLAR SYSTEM的东西

今天没温习功课但是帮爸爸弄这个蛮好玩得！
弄了大约半天吧～
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～'TADANG'~!!美丽的成果！


～还会旋转的呢！要有电流通过才能哦！
我老爸可是花了RM1.5k++！厉害吧！

今天发现两首好听的韩国歌！
1) 2PM~Hands Up! 超好听！
2) Miss A~Bad Girl, Good Girl